Inside my Sketchbook

A catch up with all of my Oz related illustrations this past year. Some of these are super recent so I show no signs of stopping yet!

return to oz mumby digital illustration

I've been wanting to draw something from Return to Oz for ages. It's actually my favourite Oz related movie - I can take or leave the Judy Garland movie to be honest, I don't know if that's controversial but it's the book of the Wizard of Oz that captivated me rather than the movie version. I grew up watching Return to Oz and I think it's what gave me such a love of horror as scenes like the Wheelers and Mombi's hallway of decapitated heads both terrified and enthralled me! And as an adult I was so excited when I picked up Baum's books for the first time and realised they were much more in keeping with Return To Oz rather than the overly saccharine MGM movie. I want to draw more from Return to Oz at some point, but here's a start! Princess Mombi and a few of her heads.

the wizard of oz scarecrow field with dorothy gale digital illustration

After I first read The Wizard of Oz I drew the scene of Dorothy meeting the Scarecrow and it's what catapulted me down this whole art journey I've been on these past two years. My style has developed a lot since then as I was still very much finding my feet back then, and it's a scene I wanted to revisit. I'd love to know which version you prefer! I had to make references to the Scarecrow being Fiyero because this is me drawing it after all!

the wizard of oz scarecrow tinman dorothy gale digital illustration

And I figured I'd draw the following scene where they meet Boq the Tin Man! He was a lot more of a challenge to draw than I realised he'd be, and whilst I originally wanted to do my own take I did end up taking a lot of inspiration from Denslow's original illustrations. Most of the difficulty came because a tin man would obviously be very rigid, whereas my art style is much more fluid and I wanted him to look stuck, not stiff and lifeless.

fiyero and glinda wicked musical broadway digital illustration

Drawing Wicked characters is my happy comfort place. I've been playing around with trying to give Fiyero his blue diamond tattoos he has in the books to try and give him back some of his cultural identity that they took away in the musical, but it's difficult not to make them look crap.

wicked musical broadway elphaba glinda popular digital illustration

I can't believe it took me this long to draw this scene honestly!

the wizard of oz scarecrow digital illustration

This is a really old drawing that I did for Inktober of 2019, and I've been wanting to colour it for ages and finally got around to it last week! It's always really intrigued me with how many story possibilities there are with Fiyero turning into a Scarecrow and how that would effect him, his relationships, and how he interacts with the world around him. But unfortunately no one else seems to care about anything beyond "Gelphie" and I'm not a writer, so I just try and touch on it in my illustrations as best I can.

My Oz Collection

Naturally being me I collect Wicked/Oz stuff and I wanted to share what I have so far. I always feel like Wicked is a show that people kind of look down on because it’s so popular, but I really can’t overstate just how much it means to me and how thankful I am that it came back into my life at just the time I needed it. In fact I feel stupidly giddy with excitement just writing this post and getting to talk about it because I just love it so much!!

It funny now but I actually didn't really like Wicked when it first came out. I liked the soundtrack as a guilty pleasure, but because I was a teenager I had that 'I'm not like other girls' mentality and preferred shows like Les Misérables which I felt took itself more seriously. I finally saw Wicked in London in 2010 and did enjoy it quite a bit but it didn't make my favourites list back then, and I really have no idea what it is about it now that's captivated me since. It's funny how things can re-enter your life and just speak to you in a way that it didn't before. I can still really clearly remember the first time I saw it again back in 2018, the first time I'd been to ANY theatre in about 7 years. I had so many emotions, not just about the show but also reconnecting with something that was once such a huge part of my life for so long. As soon as the show was finished and the actors had taken their final bows I was already calculating when I could go see it again, and I spent the entire four hour journey home fiercely trying to remember every last detail. A few days later I was flicking through an old sketchbook when I happened to come across my original Wicked theatre ticket tucked in there - serendipity. I couldn't help but notice that my two trips were just 7 days shy of being 8 years exactly between them.

Soon after I began listening to Wicked again I downloaded L Frank Baum's original novel to my Kindle. Although I was familiar with the Judy Garland movie the story never grabbed me like it did when reading the book. I feel like The Wonderful Wizard of Oz isn't as popular in Europe as it is in the US which I guess is natural as that's where it's from and partially set. I even struggled to find a physical copy of the book without ordering online, and I guess that's why it’s taken me this long to discover how great the world of Oz is as it actually fits right into my interests - I love old fantasy, my favourite books being stuff like Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, The Wind in the Willows, Moomins, Winnie the Pooh, etc. So why wouldn’t I love The Wizard of Oz? I'd always been a real bookworm but hadn’t felt like reading much as it began to feel like a chore, but I devoured the first of Baum’s books and quickly moved on to Gregory Maguire’s Wicked and fell in love with the extra layers to the characters which aren't conveyed in the musical. And it was through all of this that I rediscovered my love of musical theatre, began reading again, and rediscovered my passion for my illustration as it sparked my creativity after a years long dry spell from trying to commercialise my work at art school, and it taught me the importance of drawing for fun which finally helped me to discover an art style I enjoy. And of course I went to New York. Basically everything that makes me happy boils down to Wicked, and I'm so incredibly thankful to it!

My Oz shelf, which always makes me stupid happy to look at.

I'm not really much of a plushie collector, but I had to have these guys. The Scarecrow is my favourite of the three because of Wicked, although I do have a major soft spot for the Cowardly Lion too as I'm such an anxious person. And I've never seen anything of the Time Dragon before so had to snatch him up when I saw it on eBay.

I collect magnets for places I go, and obviously I have to include the different productions of my favourite musical. I only got the London one after I knew I'd be seeing it in New York so I'd have both.

My London mug, which will probably actually get used now since I smashed my Moulin Rouge one 😖

The only Funko Pops I own as I don't really like how the humans look. I don't have anything against the Tin Man he's just stupidly expensive and I'm hoping to eventually thrift one like I did these two.

My programmes and Playbill! I only buy programmes when it's either a new cast or got new publicity photos in it so I don't have one for every visit. And my cup from when I saw it on Broadway! I wasn't even thirsty, I just wanted the cup. They don't do these at London theatres and they're missing a trick because I never buy drinks and I would if they did!

My books! I really love the Barnes & Nobel edition of the first 5 L Frank Baum novels, they did release another with the next 5 books in the series but it's super hard to get hold of. I thrifted my copy of Wicked, and I haven't yet read the others in the series because my favourite characters aren't in them!

It's also got the original WW Denslow illustrations which I could not find in any UK edition of the The Wizard of Oz. I don't know if it's a copyright issue but it annoys me so much because the UK editions are so, so ugly.

My Wicked books from the musical. The Grimmerie is like the bible if you're a Wicked fan, it goes really in depth into the creation of the musical from the writers, costumes, make up, sets, props, actors, everyone. The pop-up compendium tells a really condensed version of the story but it's really beautifully made and is like a work of art itself.

This is the press kit from when Wicked first opened in the UK, and gives some background information on the musical along with a short documentary on the DVD.

This was my one time ordering from the US webstore as I just HAD to have the tapestry throw they released for the 15th Anniversary, and it's still one of my most prized possessions (although something about Glinda always threw me off and I only realized recently that it's because she's missing her standing collar!) I'd love to get this properly put up on the wall someday when I have the space! I also ordered the 15th anniversary brochure hoping it would be specific to the 15th Anniversary cast, but unfortunately not! It's still worth having though as it's quite general and so like an updated expansion of the Grimmerie.

I'm not much a hoodie or track jacket kind of wearer, but I was eyeing this up for ages and it's become one of my most worn things. So much so it's gone a little off colour! I love the details though even down to the cogwheel zip pull.

This is more my style! The Wizard of Oz dress is by Japanese brand Emily Temple Cute and its probably my most worn thing in my wardrobe. If I was a cartoon character with a single outfit, this would be it! I try not to wear my Wicked dress too often as it's made of jersey fabric and so will bobble really easily. It's well made though, super soft and fully lined.

This was my only shirt, but I got another since I took these photos.

My pins and jewellery! I own several of the Wicked pins as I keep losing them so like to keep a little supply going (yeah I do use pin savers, they work on every pin EXCEPT that one!!). The Defy Gravity pin is from New York and lives safely on my shelf. The Wizard of Oz necklace is designed to look like a miniture book and I had custom made from Etsy, and the Wicked one I put together myself.

And I suppose these don't count, but they also really do! These are my key chains that I had made featuring my own artwork of the characters. Wicked has been such a huge inspiration to my artwork and illustration style that it'd be disingenuous not to mention it and show this stuff. Plus I'm proud of it and like showing it off!

Evil is always more easily imagined than good, somehow

It's absolutely no secret that I adore the musical Wicked, and as soon as I rediscovered it it back in 2018 I was eager to read the book it's based on. I knew before going in that the book and the musical were almost completely different and that it was a lot deeper and darker, but I was excited for any additional character development and to perhaps better understand elements of the musical that might otherwise seem irrelevant (such as the Time Dragon! I never really realised the musical is supposed to be taking place inside the Time Dragon, I just thought it was a cool piece of stage design and that the cogs were for a more steampunk aesthetic. Turns out it serves a purpose!) Although I read the book a while ago now, I’ve been getting into BookTube and watching book reviews which made me want to put my own thoughts out there, especially as I want to start reading its sequel soon so I want to preserve my thoughts before they get muddied by that. There will absolutely be spoilers ahead!

Also as a bit of a disclaimer if it wasn't obvious, but I can't help but make comparisons with the musical and view the book through that lens. Like I said, I knew they were different before I read it but I love the musical, it's my all time favourite, and I have a lot of personal history and meaning attached to it. In all honestly I doubt I'd of ever even read this book if I didn't, and I definitely wouldn't of persevered with it as much as I did without already having that interest and connection to the characters, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

Wicked Gregory Maguire book review

For anyone who hasn't seen the musical or read the book and has decided to read this anyway with no idea what I'm talking about - Wicked: The Life and Times of The Wicked Witch of the West by Gregory Maguire is essentially a prequel to L Frank Baum's novel and the MGM movie The Wizard of Oz. It's an alternative take on the land of Oz, what went down before Dorothy dropped in, and gives a backstory and motivation to the Wicked Witch of the West (who is nameless in Baum's Oz but now named Elphaba after Baum's initials: LFB) and why the Wizard wanted her killed by Dorothy. Although The Wizard of Oz is family fun for all ages, the book of Wicked is very much a more adult take on events.

The book is very political which I really loved and felt it perfectly matched the original Wizard of Oz books, as despite being seen as for children and nothing deeper Baum was very politically active and wrote them as social commentary for his own time so it feels appropriate that this should be updated to more modern issues: there’s the racism surrounding Fiyero and the general xenophobia of him being an indigenous “Winkie” (which is now a slur, the proper term is Vinkun and the Vinkuns themselves are all from various different tribes with their own cultures and languages so the proper term for Fiyero specifically is Arjiki. Although fictional, from the physical descriptions, the prejudice imposed on them, and the way their behaviour and cultures are described they’re clearly based on Native Americans, and the Vinkus is similar in terrain and landscape to the Great Plains). Elphaba is an Animal rights activist and becomes a full blown terrorist by joining a radical extremist group which blows up buildings in the Emerald City, there's a general sense of classism prevalent in Oz which is particularly noticeable when the characters are at Shiz University, Glinda is canonically gay and enters a marriage of convenience with a gay man to uphold both of their positions in society, the Wizard is an actual dictator, there's a prevalent use of Tik-Toks (which are robots basically) which symbolises the rise of technology and the paranoia that comes with that, religious divide, and that WHOLE SCENE at the Philosophy Club with the tiger orgy. Basically everything in the book is always a metaphor for something, which I'm not going to lie does get a little exhausting.

Throughout the book I both loved and hated Elphaba. Very little of the book is told from her point of view, and because of that she feels really elusive and we don’t really get to know her so she's difficult to connect with. Several elements of Elphaba's description are also a bit weird and don't make much sense and just felt like an excuse to make her extra strange and didn't really serve any purpose beyond that. When she’s born it’s implied that she’s intersex which is then never brought up again, and she has sharp teeth for reasons I don’t even know. It's just excuses to 'other' her more, and I wish it wasn’t there as it only makes her less human. The book does stick to the original Oz lore of Elphaba being burnt by water, and even makes the point of her tears burning her so she learns from a very young age to be emotionally detached because if she were to feel any extremes of any emotion and cry it would cause her severe physical pain and scar her face. Which explains a lot of her character and why she reacts the way she does when she loses Fiyero and was just a nice touch.

More than anything the book really made me fall in love with Fiyero and his relationship with Elphaba, and ever since reading it I’m annoyed by how badly he got shafted in the musical. I know, there have to be some sacrifices due to run time, but still. He’s a huge catalyst between Elphaba and Glinda and deserves to be fleshed out at least a little. I also just wish that the musical had stuck to the very basic core of his character in that he’s an indigenous man trying to live in a white world, regularly the butt of casual racism and othered for his “ochre” skin colour (one of the characters literally says “I wouldn’t want skin the colour of shit” when referring to him, and Glinda is scandalized at rumours of her potentially dating him purely because he’s “dark skinned”) It’s a huge part of why he connects with Elphaba, aka the green woman who is also being discriminated against for her skin colour.

In terms of Fiyero it's also a very frustrating book. The narrative goes on and on about seemingly mundane details - we get about 10 pages describing a journey that offers no character development or movement of plot - but the death of Fiyero, a major central character, is just two paragraphs and one of the biggest events to happen in the whole book which is incredibly unsatisfying. Like, it's a major turning point to EVERYTHING that follows, why are you downplaying it??? Fiyero deserved so much better than that! Even Elphaba just gets one paragraph describing her death, and it began to feel like Maguire loved the world he'd created more than the characters themselves and Elphaba, Fiyero and Glinda were just a vehicle to introduce his own OCs to Baum’s Oz rather than because he had any real attachment to them. It's really annoying!

The second half of the book is the hardest to read, and in all honesty it's because it’s kind of boring. Elphaba is still in mourning for Fiyero and decides that she has to travel to his castle in the Vinkus to tell his wife Sarima that she had an affair with her husband, and it’s just kind of weird? I get her wanting to go somewhere to be closer to Fiyero and to see his family and what his life was like there, and I even understand her feeling some resentment at having the status of mistress and not being able to publicly grieve. But she’s openly hostile towards them, moves her own family in, and becomes hellbent on forcing Sarima to be friends with her because she wants her to trust her just so she can tell her she slept with her dead husband to ease her own conscience and it’s a lot and doesn’t make Elphaba in any way sympathetic or likable. Also compared to the preceding parts of the book which get really rushed over it’s tediously slow and the most drawn out. It’s the part of the book that I flat out disliked and it’s such a shame because I was super into it up to that point and was willing to overlook all of the negatives, but it really turns it from an incredible book to just so-so.

Overall this is one of the most exhausting books I've ever read and I was drained by the end and had to really force myself to get through the last 15 pages. Not because it was necessarily dull, it's just so much, all of the time. After Fiyero dies I had to actually put it down for a few weeks as that scene was so impactful for me and really broke my heart, and because it’s only glossed over you're never given time to process it. I guess it’s perhaps to represent the mystery Elphaba feels surrounding what happened, but it also means that even the reader isn’t sure. That’s really one aspect that I love the musical for and that they did right with Fiyero's character. I get that turning him into the Scarecrow creates some timeline issues within the entire Oz lore, and yeah it definitely gives it that fantasy fairytale ending, but I hate that the book essentially creates a mystery and gives the reader hope that Fiyero might be alive only to never deliver on that and just have it fizzle out. Although many criticize the happy ending of the musical, I’m not sure the gloomy “everyone's dead and that’s that” is any better, it feels kind of fake deep like when you’re trying to be an edgy nihilistic teenager. Whereas the musical is bittersweet: Elphaba has to leave and can’t tell her closest friend that she’s not dead so Glinda is forever racked with the guilt of not being able to save her friend and having to watch everyone rejoice while she’s hurting, and Fiyero has lost his actual body and sacrificed his position as Prince, his familial ties, and you know, BEING A HUMAN just to save Elphaba’s life so that they can be together. I don’t call that the happy ending that people seem to make out, and it’s one of the things I love about the musical as behind its catchy bops it’s often heartbreaking. 

So for me the musical does have a better ending than the book, which slowly builds to this thing that you know is going to happen (Dorothy killing the witch) which Maguire rushes over like he did all of the other major plot points and it becomes really unsatisfying because it’s such a slog to get there and then it just ends. And if I'm going to read a sequel I’d much rather it be about Elphaba and a scarecrow version of Fiyero trying to rebuild their lives with all of the trauma they’ve both been through both individually and together and essentially going on the run together from a dictatorship led country, than about their illegitimate child Liir who I never really gave a damn about to begin with and why it’s taken until now for me to even have the inclination to pick up the next book in the series.

"'People who claim that they're evil are usually no worse than the rest of us.' he sighed. 'It's the people who claim that they're good, or anyway better than the rest of us that you have to be wary of.'"

Throughout the book I often found Maguire's writing to be a bit self-indulgent and needlessly vague. He creates these complex, deep characters and then refuses to fully reveal them, he sets up subplots that don't seem to go anywhere. He created a fully-developed world with a political scheme, mythology, and socioeconomic structure, then forces you to try and guess at what is happening with it based on his chosen narrator's limited point of view. And yet despite all that it's also one of those books that sticks with you and I have to give it credit for that. Despite my frustrations with it, it's a very emotional book, and although I love the musical far more than I will ever love this I did enjoy the book too. Gregory Maguire's writing and use of emotion absolutely shattered my heart in a way that no other book has before, and there are elements of the book that I outright prefer to the musical, particularly in some of the characterizations *cough*Fiyero*cough*. I appreciate how it helped me to understand this version of Oz, it's politics, and the plight of the Animals better than what’s explained in the musical, and it gave me a much deeper appreciation for these characters that mean so much to me, and their motivations and character arcs. So it's definitely worth reading for me just for that, and I will re-read it again at some point - or at least the first half! It's actually a book that I think would make a really great movie or TV series, and I just hope that the musical doesn't overshadow it too much from ever happening! 

"It's not lying...it's looking at things another way"



I found some old art peices when sorting through some old sketchbooks recently and decided to rework some of my ideas. This is based on what I believe is my first ever Wicked fan art from I wanna say 2008-ish? It was around the time I first discovered I liked the soundtrack, but I hadn't actually seen the show yet so didn't really know how it was staged beyond photos I'd seen and what I imagined in my head when listening to it. This wasn't even really my art style of the time so I guess I was experimenting and I don't think I was feeling it back then either as I don't have anything else drawn with these big heads. I liked my general idea though, which is why I wanted to revisit it and I guess it's a bit of one of those 10 year challenges even if I didn't mean it to be! There is a certain satisfaction in seeing that the subject matter I enjoy drawing really hasn't changed in all of this time, it feels very authentic.



The original artwork, and the redrawn sketch.

With this perfect finale, the cheers and the ballyhoo

I saw Wicked yesterday as it'll probably be a long while until I get to see it again. And although I obviously enjoyed it, I'm happy to say that I'm content to take a break. I still love it like always, but it's definitely veering into the familiar and I don't want to see it so often that it loses it's magic as it's such an important happy place for me.

Wicked London
Wicked Wicked London
Sat in my usual spot, second row right under the Time Dragon!

Lisa-Anne Wood was playing Glinda and she's fantastic, I'd not seen her before but I really loved everything about her performance. I never understand it when they hide away the better actors as the standby and I always appreciate getting to see them in the role - I hate when people complain about having to see a standby, it's a treat! Laura Pick is Elphaba now, she's been the standby Elphaba for years but Nikki Bentley had to suddenly drop out which is a huge shame as I think she's my favourite Elphaba I've ever seen and I hope she's OK. I'd seen Laura before when she covered for Alice Fearn so knew I was in good hands, and I'm so happy for her that she's the principal now as she's worked so long and hard at the role. Unfortunately I’m still really underwhelmed with Fiyero which is a shame, he's one of my favourite characters so it always hits me hard. There's a new Boq and I really liked him too, although it does bother me that Boq is the only character that they regularly cast black actors for when Fiyero is canonically an Indigenous person of colour and always played by a white guy. It would be so refreshing to see him correctly cast just once! Overall I really loved it though! I nearly cried at the end as it was just so perfect, and on my way home I couldn't help but wonder that, if my dreams end up coming true, whether this could be the last time I see it in London?

Wicked

They had some new merch, so of course I had to get it. I particularly liked the shirt as it’s a line Mika samples in one of his records, so for me it’s like both of my interests in one!

Finale

A little something I've drawn recently, this is from the finale scene of Wicked and uh, spoiler alert? But Fiyero gets turned into the Scarecrow and I've always felt like he gets vastly overlooked within fan circles when this is a huge thing he goes through and a major sacrifice. I've always felt particularly attached to Fiyero though after reading the novel, his character is a lot more developed in that so I guess if you haven't read it it's easy not to care about what happens to him as he doesn't have a lot of stage time. This is actually a reworking of an art piece I did a year ago, which was in the midst of when I was finding my style, and because I was working on so much artwork at that time it felt outdated for how I was working even then. I really loved the concept though, and knew I wanted to revisit it at some point so I'm glad I now have a version to be proud of and feels more cohesive with my body of work.

Popular, I know about popular

I went down to London yesterday to see Wicked, I hadn't seen it since I was in New York in August so it felt like it had been a while, and I hadn't seen it with the current London cast at all. I was stupidly nervous because I'm a big fan of Alice Fearn, the previous Elphaba, and I was unfamiliar with Nikki Bentley who's currently playing her. But as soon as she came on after 'Dear Old Shiz' I warmed to her immediately, I just loved her mannerisms and because I was right at the front I could see all of her facial expressions and I just got drawn right in to her performance. When she started singing 'The Wizard And I' she started quite softly and I was worried that despite her wonderful acting that she was vocally weak, but she kept building and building throughout the song seemingly without effort and completely blew me away. I stan, I think she's one of the best Elphaba's I've ever seen. She looked like she was trying not to burst into tears when everyone's laughing at her in the Ozdust Ballroom scene, and there were so many little elements of her performance like that that just really hit me emotionally that I've not seen other actresses do. I'll definitely be keeping an eye on other things she does too!

Wicked London, Apollo Victoria Theatre
Wicked London, Apollo Victoria Theatre
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